What am I supposed to do?
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Toward the end of The Apology, Socrates makes a statement that resonates even with those who have never read Plato{“ “I tell you that…examining both myself and others is really the very best that a man can do, and that life without this sort of examination is not worth living”. As previously, we may question the universal application of this notion, but, personally, I am addicted to it along with dialogue as its main instrumentality. Having tried engineering, architecture, information technology, philosophy an Comprehensive Anticipatory Design Science --- all with limited success, Finding living such a life to be a difficult task --- as did Socrates --- I’m forced to take to The Raft of Socrates:

"I think Socrates, as presumably you do yourself, that in this life it is either altogether beyond our powers, or at least very difficult, to attain certain knowledge about matters such as these. And yet a man would be a coward if he did not try with all his might to refute every argument about them, refusing to give up before he has worn himself out by examining them from all sides. For he must do one of two things either he must learn, or discover, the truth about these matters, or if that is beyond his powers, he must grasp whatever human doctrine seems to him to be the best, and to offer the hardest resistance to refutation; and, mounting on it as upon a raft, he must venture into danger and sail upon it through life, unless he can mount upon something stronger, less dangerous, and more trustworthy . . . " -Plato